Ok. Lets do this.

Thanks for your stories and your advice, all.

I have made the decision to actively pursue a natural childbirth in a hospital.  (Hooray).

I feel I've educated myself, some additional stories have reassured me that this is a well and good (and achievable) path to take.   Now that I have signed up for pre-natal yoga, a Bradley class, and just flat out think that I CAN do it... my mind is easing tremendously.

If the train crashes and I need the drugs in the middle, it wont be the end of the world or of my pride, as long as the baby is healthy.

But I will do everything I can to prepare myself mentally, physically and practically... then let the chips fall.    There can't be anything wrong with that plan.

We are truly fearfuly and wonderfully made.